In The Shadows Of A Loquat Tree
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Sunday, February 07, 2010 6:14 AM



Howdy-do!



I am soooo tired. Camp was a blast, other than scoldings here and there, i had a whole new experience being in another position. Slightly more privileged because i was able to escape the milo pond, drink coffee, sleep in aircon room, had a bed, eat chocolates, ran about and kayak with different classes, use the phone, not sleep early, and most importantly, i won't have to squeeze and fight for a place in the toilet. I think i am privileged afterall. Jaryl, Redzuan, Noh and i were more active probably because we had a smaller age gap and somehow, i thought of my sec three camp too. Like a student, i was great friends with the students, which was so weird. Like a RT, i was always entertained and braced up by the other RTs, they make my day. With such a bond established, there were several moments when i felt doleful abruptly. How am i going to face what will happen probably next month? It is harder to part.
Tomorrow is a new challenge, to face it, i need courage! ............... Hope i have it tomorrow.

With so many things going on..sometimes i feel like i'm falling deeper when it shouldn't even happen in the first place. Thirteen days ago was a like a chimera. Caught in an awkward spot, i am unaware of my vicinity. It should have a clear ending or we foresee tragedy. Without moirai, sometimes, why don't we halt. Hmm...I need to hold back the hopeless faith.