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Ahhhh...i can finally feel relieved..NOT. I still feel burdened and lost, with such grades and work. I want to return to school. Beyond any doubt, the pressure we faced in school is nothing as compared to work. Yes, there are incentives to continue working when i see my bank balance increasing, but behind all that, is hard work and weary smiles. When i am tired of studying, my teacher can give me encouragement, my friends can give me comfort. When i am tired of working, my boss...encourage me? :/:/ Everyday, i step in fearing i would do something wrong and they would tell me to pack and get lost. Everyday, i fear that i would be implicated and get involved in the politics that exist within the room. I cannot say no...i cannot bargain...i cannot ask for help because it won't be much of a help either. Got to be gracious and accept, thinking that they entrust you with the task because they have faith in you. Hmmm, deep down, is it more like dumping them?
I am totally enjoying holidays, just doing nothing and lazing around at home. I need this time, just Melissa and oxygen.
I learn to get frustrated and irritated with really minor things, i nag a lot, the syndromes that Mr Lee mentioned, its showing, its showingggggggggg! noooooooo