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I tend to draft and not post because i get bored after typing for awhile.
Should i just relax and enjoy life as i expect my impending doom? Life has been quite tough when it should not have been. I've got stuff in front of me and yet at the back of my head, i haven't forget you even after many had went on enjoying their lives, tossing you behind. You are so irritating especially when people starts asking me about you! I feel like saying march then see how, but still..got to think about what's next, deep inside, its extremely vexing, how will mummy, daddy feel? I'm such a disappointment.
As i continued working, i saw many different kinds of people and things that i did not even notice when i was there years ago. It made me realize, understand how ignorant i was. Its time to salvage but there is just this much i can do. On the other hand, my negligence on my real life makes me confused and unable to think of what i should do to bring back the times and moments. I've got limited time now!
January was horribly packed and i hardly had a moment to really rest and have a blank mind. My to-do list was really filled up with things i HAVE TO do before As end. But right after it ended, i'm lost and i have barely accomplished any of them. Motivated with guitar and after a few weeks, i left it to collect dust in the room. Motivated to snorkel, then where's the plan? Motivated to do volunteer work, then i did not take a next step out! Motivated to visit chen su lan children home, then never call back? Motivated to lose weight, then totally heck it now? ETC! Next year, we must stick to our promise and climb mount kinabalu!
Okay at least i went pulau ubin, like finally and passed my taekwondo grading, i think black belt must wait alrd, but i seriously want to take on japanese language, tamil also. How?!
My temper could get worse if this goes on..please be fiercer, they would say, but ms chen say if i continue working long enough, i would change. Sometimes, it gets so infuriating i dread entering the classes. Thank god there are nice angels present who are able to get rid of the desolation. In school, Ivy, Natalie, Meiqi, Nicolette, Khai Ling etc give constant encouragement. Prawnball, yanyu, jingxuan, youyang, kengyee,yongliang bring me laughter. Kerry, weibin and liphwee too!
Outside school, winifred, kaihui, rachel, daphne, shaun will talk to me and listen to me. There is one friend whom i often have his image on my mind yet i couldn't send my regards to him, py, i hope you are getting better and happier, our pay will be on 25 feb, wth.
At least..i get to see them grow, it has been 3 years.

How are you all?
I miss you!Thanks for everything lovelies!